Letter to My Baby Lost

Dear Baby,

Today, September 7th, would have been your due date. During the past nine months I have thought about you many times. I lost you early, and did not get to know you as well as I had planned, but you touched my life like no one else has. I know that you are with God now and He will take care of you until we meet again. I look forward to that day.

You came to us very unexpectedly. After years of infertility and several medical treatments, you came naturally. The doctors were stunned to hear of your presence, telling us we had a 1% chance of conceiving you without medical intervention. I sometimes wonder if your existence was partly to help me heal from hearing of my best friend's pregnancy, or if it was a sign that God knew what He was doing and that we needed to follow His timing. I know for sure that you brought Daddy and me closer together. I was very pained with your passing, yet as you left my body, I knew in that moment that I needed to make your Dad a priority in my life and give him the attention that I had neglected for so long. You gave us new life, baby.

This is a sad day for me, yet I feel comforted knowing that your presence was not a mistake. That God had a plan for you, just as He has for me.

I am excited to meet your baby brother in December; his pending arrival lessens the pain of losing you.

Until we meet again, little one,

Your Mommy