Nervousing...

We had a bit of a scare yesterday. At about 11am, I was experiencing SEVERE abdominal cramping that lasted about 20 minutes, then the same cramping later at about 3pm. Worse than period cramps, but quite different than those I'd experienced when AF arrived. No bleeding, but it freaked me out, so I called my OB. She scheduled an appointment for 4pm that same day. When I got in, she did a pelvic exam and an ultrasound on their old system (they only have one US unit in the office!) The exam showed a flickering bean measuring right on target at 160bpm. Dr. BP said that I made her nervous and she now wants to "watch me like a hawk". I found that a bit humorous, since she treated me during my miscarriage in January and at that appointment, told me that she'd monitor me very closely during the next pregnancy. At my first appointment for this pregnancy, she only ordered ultrasounds for 6 and 12 weeks. A far cry from what I thought would be "close monitoring". I complained about not having more ultrasounds then, but she assured me that everything would be fine. I guess she finally realized that wouldn't work for me. I'll now have rotating appointments with her and the ultrasound tech every other week. So, I'll get to see our little "raspberry" this Friday (8 weeks already!) and again at 10 weeks, just before we make our announcement to the family.

On a more sobering note,I finally recieved the pathology results from the miscarriage: Inconclusive. Apparently, the tissues I had supplied were simply from the uterine lining and not at all related to "conception". So, unfortunately, we'll never know why the miscarriage happened. I expected to be quite emotional about whatever the results entailed, but I find myself very sober instead.