Pregnancy #1

I often sit and think about what my life would be like if my little bean had made it safely into my arms. The death of my little baby leaves a sadness in me that I can't push away. It also leaves me grateful for the experience. I am glad to have been a mommy for such a short time. I am grateful that I have learned so much about myself even from such a tiny spirit. I can't help but wonder what will happen to my little bean when I die. Will I be it's mommy in Heaven? Did it only need that taste of life to complete it's journey here on earth? If that is true, then I am happy I was able to help make that possible. I have so many questions...